This project is the story of a mind at war with itself. One half spins wildly—restless, impulsive, unstoppable. The other clings to structure—counting, checking, arranging the world into something manageable. Together they form the rhythm of my days, a back-and-forth between disorder and control, confusion and calm. And through it all, my faith holds steady. Jesus is the anchor in the storm, the source of peace that keeps me from unraveling.

Each staged self-portrait is a window into that interior landscape. Layers of motion blur and superimposed selves become metaphors for racing thoughts and fractured attention, while still frames speak to the grounding pull of order. The transformation of ordinary spaces into painted environments reflects my desire to reshape how I see myself—to soften time’s edges, to step into a version of me that feels more beautiful.

Every image is more than a photograph. The composite embodies either chaos or control, while the portrait captures a single emotional truth—chaotic or calm. Color ties it all together, shifting with the emotional temperature of each scene. Abstract dye-in-water images echo these feelings, flowing and colliding just as my thoughts do.

This work is both confession and map. It documents how ADHD and OCD shape my daily life, but it also charts a path forward—reminding me how to quiet the noise and offering others a way to see themselves in the struggle. My hope is that in these images, you’ll find empathy, connection, and maybe even a way to bring your own chaos into balance.